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Stay with the painful thoughts

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The physical fact of being alive — breath, skin, hands, sleep.

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Getting through. The poems that sit with endurance.

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Showing 103 of 103 poems.

No. 1

The journey begins

Imagine I was right there with you

Maná Stormzy
SelfhoodSurvival
September 202415 lines

No. 2

Come back to you

One day you'll stand on the ledge of a rooftop

Stormzy Maná
SelfhoodSurvivalUrban Memory
October 202412 lines

No. 3

You can

One day you'll meet a person

Stormzy Maná
SelfhoodSurvival
October 202414 lines

No. 4

And you are magic

Imagine a crystal vase

Josh Ritter
SelfhoodLove / DesireBody
October 202418 lines

No. 5

In your arms

One day, when you're six years old

Ben E. King DMX
Love / DesireBody
October 202415 lines

No. 6

So slip away

It's okay to

Josh Ritter Big Pun
SurvivalUrban MemorySelfhood
October 202417 lines

No. 7

Or leave before you

What if you got so good at lying

2Pac
ChildhoodShameSelfhood
October 202421 lines

No. 8

You will achieve

One beautiful early fall day

Stormzy Maná
SelfhoodSurvivalUrban Memory
October 202419 lines

No. 9

Yet the surface still, remains so perfect

The surface of the giant lake before you

2Pac
SelfhoodFaith
October 202414 lines

No. 10

A word is worth one coin. Silence is worth two.

Sometimes, you just have to

Dave Matthews
SelfhoodSurvival
October 202411 lines

No. 11

You're such a beautiful child

One day you'll watch

Everclear DMX
ViolenceChildhoodSurvival
October 202421 lines

No. 12

Those wounds stung

There will come a time

2Pac Stormzy
ViolenceBodySurvival
October 202412 lines

No. 13

Remember the feeling

You look down

Andy Williams Josh Ritter
Love / DesireUrban Memory
October 202415 lines

No. 14

Comes from love

I watched you with a 4-crayon pack,

Ben E. King Mac Miller
Love / DesireChildhood
October 202417 lines

No. 15

To shape your heart

When you leave home for the first time,

Big Pun Mac Miller
FatherhoodSelfhood
October 202416 lines

No. 16

The painting of paradise

Yesterday, through my translucent looking glass

Andy Williams Big Pun
Music / ArtLove / DesireFaith
October 202417 lines

No. 17

Bring your past selves to their feet

Treasure the time you have on stage,

Maná Stormzy
Music / ArtSelfhoodChildhood
October 20248 lines

No. 18

How will you begin?

Nights, years—nights, years—

Mac Miller Maná
SelfhoodMusic / Art
October 202418 lines

No. 19

The greatest party you've ever seen in your life

The blank, beige canvas stands before you—

Mac Miller
Music / ArtSelfhoodLove / Desire
October 202417 lines

No. 20

Fill the shape

One day, you'll watch a friend receive

Dave Matthews Andy Williams
SurvivalShameSelfhood
October 20248 lines

No. 21

The shards that slice your hands

Each pivotal moment,

2Pac Mac Miller
SelfhoodBodySurvival
October 202417 lines

No. 22

From the source

Don't pause, don't interrupt the flow

Dave Matthews
Music / ArtSelfhoodSurvival
October 202411 lines

No. 23

Your warm breath

There's something you will do,

DMX Ben E. King
Love / DesireBody
October 202416 lines

No. 24

The soft shadow

You see the shadow of the

2Pac Dave Matthews
FaithLove / DesireSelfhood
October 202414 lines

No. 25

The shadow dance for your escape

Shut your eyes when you know

Stormzy
SurvivalViolenceSelfhood
October 20249 lines

No. 26

Tangled up inside

It's not someone else's job

2Pac
SelfhoodSurvival
October 20246 lines

No. 27

What can you do now to prepare?

The real test will come

Stormzy Maná
SelfhoodSurvival
October 202415 lines

No. 28

Let's walk together

You don't yet know me, but I know

Maná
SelfhoodChildhoodSurvival
October 202416 lines

No. 29

Hold close the messenger

One day, you'll discover a way to

Maná Stormzy
Music / ArtSelfhood
October 20249 lines

No. 30

What did the man in the black cowboy hat say?

The truth of certain words

Maná
SelfhoodUrban Memory
October 202411 lines

No. 31

The real prison

Don't let your power of choice

2Pac Kid Cudi
SelfhoodSurvivalShame
October 20249 lines

No. 32

Know that it's coming

Know that it's coming:

Everclear Stormzy
FaithSelfhoodSurvival
October 202415 lines

No. 33

Coruscate off her skin

One day you'll echo the never-ending

Andy Williams Mac Miller
ChildhoodLove / DesireMusic / Art
November 202411 lines

No. 34

That syncopated rhythm

Listen closely to

Andy Williams Josh Ritter
Music / ArtSelfhoodBody
November 202410 lines

No. 35

That only you can feel

The absence of a guiding hand,

Stormzy DMX
ChildhoodBodySurvival
November 202414 lines

No. 36

Cherish the click

Cherish the click.

Josh Ritter Stormzy
Music / ArtSelfhood
November 202412 lines

No. 37

So use your own

You never yearned to hear

Ghostface 2Pac
MotherSelfhoodLove / Desire
November 20248 lines

No. 38

What happens next

The flame begins to burn

Andy Williams Mac Miller
SelfhoodFaithSurvival
November 202415 lines

No. 39

Don't let it build

There are so many reasons.

Kid Cudi 2Pac
ShameSurvivalSelfhood
November 202415 lines

No. 40

A calculated leap across the darkness

Remember the vision

Stormzy Maná
SelfhoodSurvival
November 202412 lines

No. 41

Stay with the painful thoughts

Imagine compassion built from the

Josh Ritter Stormzy
SelfhoodSurvivalBody
November 202411 lines

No. 42

The inner spark

Don't let the thing you needed most,

Stormzy DMX
SelfhoodSurvival
November 20249 lines

No. 43

Think deeply before you

Think deeply before you

2Pac
ViolenceSelfhood
November 20248 lines

No. 44

The times you were held

The times you were held

DMX Ben E. King
Love / DesireChildhood
November 202412 lines

No. 45

The life that you escaped

A thousand fun-house mirrors arrayed

2Pac Maná
SurvivalSelfhood
November 202411 lines

No. 46

The underground snake-ship,

The underground snake-ship,

Big Pun Josh Ritter
Urban MemoryChildhood
November 202411 lines

No. 47

The jacket you wore all last

The jacket you wore all last

DMX
Urban MemorySelfhood
November 20249 lines

No. 48

Invisible prisons you locked yourself in

The long coupon bus rides

Kid Cudi Big Pun
Urban MemorySelfhoodSurvival
November 202412 lines

No. 49

The domino cascade

How can you enhance the vision of

Andy Williams Josh Ritter
Love / DesireSelfhood
November 20247 lines

No. 50

Your intuition knew

You'll never forget when you feel magic.

Mac Miller Big Pun
MotherMusic / ArtSelfhood
November 202415 lines

No. 51

Until you find the color

Can you arrange the blocks

Mac Miller DMX
Music / ArtSelfhoodChildhood
November 202412 lines

No. 52

Notice the tremors in your

Notice the tremors in your

Mac Miller Dave Matthews
Music / ArtBodySelfhood
November 20249 lines

No. 53

Out of any other

How does it look through

Josh Ritter
Urban MemorySelfhood
November 20246 lines

No. 54

But you still needed

I'm sorry I never spoke to you on the steps.

Maná DMX
ChildhoodShameSurvival
November 202414 lines

No. 55

Revisit the darkness

What force draws you back to walk

Big Pun 2Pac
SelfhoodSurvivalViolence
November 20249 lines

No. 56

All the times you felt the music stir

All the times you felt the music stir

Mac Miller Stormzy
Music / ArtSelfhoodChildhood
November 202412 lines

No. 57

Remember when you

Remember when you

DMX Dave Matthews
Love / DesireBody
November 202410 lines

No. 59

One day you'll wake up from a

One day you'll wake up from a

Stormzy
SelfhoodFaith
November 20249 lines

No. 60

As the fire grew within

The Walkman on the long rides throughout

Big Pun Mac Miller
Music / ArtSurvivalSelfhood
November 202414 lines

No. 61

Sleeping on the couch in the old house

Sleeping on the couch in the old house

DMX Big Pun
ChildhoodUrban Memory
November 202411 lines

No. 62

Indistinguishable from silence

Sometimes the screams grow so loud

2Pac
ViolenceSelfhoodBody
November 20248 lines

No. 63

I want to see you after you practice for

I want to see you after you practice for

Maná Stormzy
FatherhoodLove / Desire
November 202416 lines

No. 65

Conceive the next magic trick

The energy you spent dismissing

Mac Miller Josh Ritter
Music / ArtSelfhood
December 20249 lines

No. 66

Imagine you could watch

Imagine you could watch

Dave Matthews DMX
ChildhoodSurvivalUrban Memory
December 202413 lines

No. 67

She appeared like a sparkling shimmer

She appeared like a sparkling shimmer

Andy Williams
Love / DesireSelfhood
December 202411 lines

No. 70

Use your instrument

You understood the sound of

Ghostface Ben E. King
Music / ArtLove / Desire
December 20246 lines

No. 71

How special it is when you find the

How special it is when you find the

Andy Williams Mac Miller
Music / ArtSelfhoodLove / Desire
December 202412 lines

No. 73

In the ghost light

You jumped the fence

Big Pun Josh Ritter
Music / ArtSurvivalSelfhood
December 202410 lines

No. 74

You touched the cloud

Butterflies and secret sparks

Andy Williams Big Pun
ChildhoodLove / DesireMusic / Art
December 202410 lines

No. 75

Or did you stay on the floor?

She disappeared down the hallway,

Andy Williams Josh Ritter
ChildhoodLove / DesireSurvival
December 202414 lines

No. 77

I'll learn one day

To even think that I could teach you,

Ghostface Ben E. King
FatherhoodChildhoodLove / Desire
December 202413 lines

No. 79

And everyone is transformed

When you hear the piercing cry for help

Stormzy
SurvivalViolenceSelfhood
December 202414 lines

No. 81

Let the wind die down

What you didn't have—

Maná Kid Cudi
ShameChildhoodSurvival
December 202413 lines

No. 83

As if you both knew

You can't grasp what you'd most wish.

Ben E. King Josh Ritter
Love / DesireSelfhood
December 202411 lines

No. 84

As your lungs fill

The pull of return from the

Stormzy Kid Cudi
BodySurvivalSelfhood
December 20248 lines

No. 86

The escape with no roadmap

The escape with no roadmap

Stormzy Kid Cudi
SurvivalSelfhood
January 202510 lines

No. 87

The dewdrops of your dreams

It's the words scrawled past the margins

Mac Miller Big Pun
Music / ArtSelfhoodUrban Memory
January 20259 lines

No. 88

How'd you know the echo of colors

How'd you know the echo of colors

Ghostface DMX
ChildhoodMusic / ArtSelfhood
January 202513 lines

No. 89

Beyond the override

When the clouds wash off your face

Dave Matthews Josh Ritter
BodySurvivalSelfhood
January 20258 lines

No. 90

Freeze-frames

Each of the freeze-frames of your worst

2Pac
SelfhoodBodyShame
January 20259 lines

No. 91

Where dreams emerged...

Please don't take away the early mornings

Big Pun DMX
Urban MemorySelfhood
February 202511 lines

No. 92

Ribbons

Ribbons unfurl and dance across

Josh Ritter Mac Miller
Love / DesireBody
February 202511 lines

No. 93

Tracing the beautiful illusion of control

The mazes you drew in red and orange

DMX Mac Miller
SelfhoodShame
February 202512 lines

No. 95

A chamber of the overcome

You'll be taken back one day

Stormzy DMX
SurvivalSelfhoodViolence
February 202513 lines

No. 97

The argument against war

To dance beneath the moonlight

Andy Williams Mac Miller
Music / ArtFaithViolence
March 202512 lines

No. 98

One day, on a corner, waiting for the light to change,

One day, on a corner, waiting for the light to change,

Andy Williams Dave Matthews
Urban MemorySelfhood
March 202516 lines

No. 99

The shadow of a dark cloud you felt

The shadow of a dark cloud you felt

Stormzy Maná
FaithSelfhoodSurvival
March 202520 lines

No. 100

The bars, the windows,

The bars, the windows,

Everclear Kid Cudi
Urban MemoryShameSelfhood
March 202514 lines

No. 101

One summer night, you'll glimpse infinity.

One summer night, you'll glimpse infinity.

Big Pun Josh Ritter
Urban MemoryFaithSelfhood
March 202514 lines

No. 102

Off the Avenue

Oh, how I wished I could have been driving

Kid Cudi Andy Williams
Urban MemoryLove / DesireMusic / Art
March 202513 lines

No. 103

Disrupt the continuum

There may be days

Maná Stormzy
SelfhoodSurvivalFaith
March 202510 lines

No. 104

The high-pitched call

The high-pitched call

Andy Williams Big Pun
Urban MemoryBodyLove / Desire
April 202514 lines

No. 105

If one kid reads this

I wish I could have warned you.

Everclear DMX
SelfhoodChildhood
April 202564 lines

No. 106

Don't fucking listen.

You don't have to lie.

Stormzy 2Pac
SelfhoodSurvivalShame
April 202514 lines

No. 107

The Champagne Ship

The champagne ship sailed through the night

Everclear
ViolenceUrban MemorySelfhood
June 202559 lines

No. 108

The unexpected voice only sounds familiar

The unexpected voice only sounds familiar

2Pac Stormzy
FaithSelfhood
September 202523 lines

No. 109

Only by stripping the partial shrouds

Only by stripping the partial shrouds

Dave Matthews Stormzy
FaithSurvivalSelfhood
January 20266 lines

No. 110

Bougainvillea

I watched her hair catch fire

Andy Williams
Love / DesireBodyMusic / Art
January 202610 lines

No. 111

On the steps outside of music class

On the steps outside of music class

Ben E. King DMX
FatherhoodLove / Desire
January 202619 lines

No. 112

The dream

The plan and execution—

Everclear 2Pac
ShameSelfhood
February 202617 lines

No. 113

Lightning Bug

I wish I could cup your tiny hands

Ben E. King DMX
SelfhoodBody
March 20269 lines

No. 114

She wrote

She wrote

Andy Williams Mac Miller
Love / DesireSelfhood
March 202618 lines

No. 115

Access Revoked

A girl skipped a stone across a crystal lake,

Stormzy DMX
April 202618 lines

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